it's been such a long time i havent written a single piece of sharing
i guess my thought and feeling have been too complicated...
even i myself couldnt figure out what i am thinking of
perhaps it's about time to voice out
you know, i just cant keep everything a secret hidden in my heart..
i am glad that things kept at their bad shapes
well that deserves a celebration or whatever, at least they didnt turn even worse..
to be precise, my academic aspect sucks right now..
every day i get myself back to school for "who-know-what reasons"..
i cant get the feeling that it's of any use to me..
hmm.. maybe it's for the chemistry supp. lessons...but that doesnt come up every day..
or to see my friends..
other than that, there is hardly a reason or motivation for me to get back to school
having to get up at 7 something at the morning every day..
having to attend numerous lessons that are not to my liking(i would describe it moderately here so as to avoid getting into any unknown troubles)
having to listen to something that i wont understand after trying hard to interpret..
having to switch off my brain or sing alone in order to endure every lesson..
having to do assignments that require me to do something that i have no idea what it is(i do not even know what's actually happening)
just enough!!!!!!! what am i doing here????????
cant you just gimme a break??
god, plz accompany me to get through this massacre...
i do not even have the strength to get up now..
i am really worried about my future..
you promised that everybody would get enough to live through every moments in his life..
but at the moment i am just powerless..
there is nothing i can do now, but to await your help..
plz, help me in a suitable moment..
without you i am just nothing..
抹去那串眼淚再向前走 過去縱有失望再也不追究
欠缺勇氣都需要向前走 處處佈滿風浪也要向上游 | 
